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Three more hours to school, still contemplating if I should appear later haha.

It's really one of the few nights I can actually relax and just chat on the phone with my favourite girlies for hours and hours. It felt good, really. I didn't know I could still smile and get so exciting when I'm relating our story, that was then I realise I didn't forget those feelings all these while. My emotions doesnt fluctuate so frequently now. I find that slowly, I'm returning back to who I am, cheerful and bubbly. Anyway I know clearly that you've moved on so I should too. But I've always wanted you to know that I've not changed at all, okay not that it matters anymore, just wanted you to know (:

A levels are so near and that scares me, not to mention prelims. I keep on thinking that I'll have to repeat J2 all over again, this really keeps my stress level at the optimal. Aiyaaaa should have concentrate and paid a little more attention in J1, I mean that's when you're gonna build up your basics right. And oh no, what if I can't get into NUS or NTU? I guess Mummy and Daddy will really be disappointed, and I'm not used to disappointing them. This gives me a great motivation to study, at least for them, I've to do my best.

Well I guess that as long as I've my focus right and feels motivated to fight to the very end, I can do it! But life moves pretty fast, so I shouldn't forget to stop and look around once in awhile, if not I could miss it. Some things are gone once you missed it, and there's no point regretting it after it happens cause regretting and thinking about it doesn't change anything at all. So all I can do, is to hope for the better.

So, hold back the tears, there's little reprieve.
If you show you're weak, you're accepting defeat.
I can be strong (: