Lev

I got up really early to prepare for history consultation and the headache almost killed me ytd night ): What's the point of studying? Like seriously. But there seems to be no answer to this pathetic question of mine.

Anyway I'm here cause I need to sort out my feelings before going to school. People just have to make the best out of what they have and that's true. But being down and sad does not mean that I'm not trying to be the best that I can be or that I'm not putting in the effort to make the situation better. I've really been trying to be a happier girl.

Even so, I've long accepted that it's my fault and I know you've always thought that I'm the one at wrong. Just that I thought that as time passes, you might be able to understand why I did that. Guess I was wrong about it.

Oh well just remember that I should never ever get emotionally attached to anyone again, cause it's difficult to get detached. So difficult that sometimes, I secretly wished that memories could be deleted.

And I was thinking, is it possible that what's left is just guilt and nothing else?