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No one appreciates, in the end you'll become just a selfish hurtful bitch in whatever you say. And knowing that you're being like that, you feel broken all over again. All you can do now is nothing but to hide under your blankets and start sobbing, while trying as hard as possible to not wake your sister up.

Then the doubting starts. Is everything you're doing really worth it? When you're viewed as the third party by most people it just doesn't make anything feels right. You double the effort to want others to like and favour you, you triple the effort to show people that your boyfriend wasn't being the jerk and that he made a right choice by choosing you. I know all these can be simply played off by saying let's just ignore what others say/think. But honestly, how many people can actually not be affected by other's opinions.

So maybe it mattered to me so much cause I did put in tons of effort in attempting to change all these negative opinions.

Sometimes I do wish that I do not need to vet through photos and keep worrying if your friends would judge if I posted them or get so envious of friends that can openly change their rs status on fb without much concern. Simply because all these would not be coming by in my life so easily.

But still, I thank you all who chose to believe in me.