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Ice cream makes me happy, and I'm glad I actually had ice cream just now.
Although it didn't exactly make me happy but it did made me less sad and that's a happy thing.

Feeling that my neurotransmitters are firing at a very irregular rate, the whole body feels weird, especially the heart.

I'm not a sarcastic person by nature so if I become really sarcastic then maybe you might want to know that you've pretty much stepped on one of the land mines I buried deep deep down. And because it's so deep down, you deserve to give yourself a round of applause (yes, this is sarcasm if you're wondering).

So now comes the same question yet again, why make yourself so vulnerable? I've never ever did manage to answer that but maybe, this is the single quality that makes us all human. Humans are vulnerable creatures.

(I really feel like a total idiot now that I can just squat down and cry on the spot.)

Everything feels so different now and I've no idea how am I going to cope with that.

And because I've no idea how to cope with that, I'm done here.